#27. For Your Entertainment.

Woah, Livin' On A Prayer.

Pray hard.

Where's my chance to prove my worth.

Brandon.

#26. segreti rubati dal profondo interno

The drum beats out of time.

Nelo k4 was kinda screwed up, but in the regata we flew. hahah.

well, anyway, 1 more day of waiting. and 14 more days to judgement day/days.

and 21 days to Hungary.

I hope this 7kg i put on after ACC isn't fat ):

Brandon.

On a side note, I got whacked in the head by Ray's paddle, (Geng Jie finally got his revenge) and I think my wrist problem's getting worse. I hope it's a temporary thing though!

I can do this I can do this. only 5 more days.

#25. Di essere con voi

so, the language's changed. I needa switch the language cause, umm, Spanish kinda isnt one of the languages in my theory exam, so I'll start learning Italian NOW.

So, you might've heard, or you might not have heard, but either way I'm gonna tell you.

I AM THE FRICKIN KING OF THE WORLD.

Why?

I managed to come in on par with the 3 insane 200m guys (with the help of a leeeetle false start)

namely, Jori, Zi Qiang and Clarence. Wheehooo.

But unfortunately, I doubt i can repeat the same feat. It's like Joshua's one shot wonder except like, my whole life one shot wonder :P. Oh well. You'll never ever see me fly a 200m ever again (i think).

And I won for both thousands :D. though the timing was quite not so good, but. I'm still the king of the world. hahahhahaha

okay time to stop ego-ing.

Mi manchi.

Brandon.

#24. Desperate Times Call For Desperate Measures

Never say die, never say die.

Die.

24:54, that's easily the worst 5km timing I've ever ever clocked! ughhhh. ASDF you water!. You pissed me off so bad.

Now that's aside, IBA's been quite fun, but I think I've had enough, working life's not for me. hahahah, though I did get free cookies! :D. I need a break, been falling asleep so much. I NEED SLEEP.

3 more days, to break records.

Brandon.

#23. Es demasiado tarde para luchar contra

Sometimes I wish this equivalent trade thingum didn't exist.

Brandon.

#22. Yo Realmente Debería Comenzar a Hacer Algún Sentido

I'm wishing you were here
My weakness is my fear
Alone I am myself no reason left for me to care

Oh joy, another 8 more days.

Well, I got a pokemon soft toy! :D.

and my legs hurt ):

Brandon.

#21. Veintiún

One, twenty-one guns, lay down your arms

haha, damn just walked a marathon, ate a whole load, and walked another marathon then hijacked a computer.
What fun XP.

on a cooler note, I have 2 more movies watched! hahahaa

the transformers i'd never gotten to watching and terminator XP.

Coolios

hahhaaa


Brandon.

#20. Veinte

Will she hear me if I called her name

Would she hold me, if she knew my shame

Hahhaha! Well, leaving to Tokyo tomorrow! How fun.

Got my five hundred bucks!

And, chances are I'm probably not going Hungary.

Brandon.

on a darker note.

I ran out of icecream.

#19. Diecinueve

Tonight I'm weak

It's just another day without you

I can't sleep

I'd go around the world for you to

Hear Me Say

Don't Throw Me Away

And There's No Way Out

I Gotta Hold You Somehow.

Haha, double training!

OWN THAT LAND PROGRAMME IN 2 DAYS :)

Brandon.

#18. Dieciocha

I pray to God that you do.

I'll do whatever you want me to do.

Over and over again.

Sentosa. AGAIN. hahaha. how fun!

Didn't manage to stay for long though.

BHG is such a cool place lol

And I cleaned my boat (:

Brandon

#17. Diecisiete.

And a word to the wise when the fire dies

You think it's over but it's just begun.

Cause you had my heart

At least for the most part.

Hahahha, life ain't so bad after all.

Training's been fun!

And days have been awesome!

Haha, only got one reason to feel mutual about life hating me now!

Brandon.

#16. Dieciséis

I pray by the grace of God that there's somebody listening

Give me a chance to be that person I wanna be

(Oh I am unbroken, I'm choking on this ecstasy)

Oh Lord, I've tried so hard but you gotta let go of me

(Unbreak me, unchain me, I need another chance to live)

Haha, so these few days have been great (:

Training's started again, and I look set to make back my timings.

Ready?

Gotta admit, that life ain't so bad

Here I go!

But somehow, thoughts keep creeping back to me.

Haha, bad rhymes with sad!

And so I go.

Brandon.

#15. Quince.

When you're all alone, with a melody
Will you close your eyes, and think of me

Someone who cared, out in the air
Then let them crash down anywhere.

Remember the line, never say die?
You were the reason I survived.
Where'd you go I needa know
I waited here, you never showed
It's gonna be, harder for me
I can't forgive so many things
When you were down, I was around
Why would you try and hurt me now


Will you still hear me singing anymore, when Five Becomes Four.


Hahhaa! I hate exams.
Chem's the last mugging paper.
Looking forward, to the end of it.

Brandon.

#14. Catorce.

drenched in my pain again becoming who we are.

wake me up when september ends.

damn i shouldn't have woken up when it ended. :/

hahaha, should've been shot in Iran or something.

I should just F My Life. hahahah

Brandon.

#13. Trece.

If I could then I'd shrink the world tonight

So that I would find, you and me inside

So I just found out about this cool place called fusionopolis. hahaha, it looks cool on the outside. Just another sciency mall :P.

Well, IHS is a pain.

RES is good, but it makes us have to think so much for IHS essay. sucks.

I am screwed. I hope I don't fail.

I don't want to go con camp ):

eeyeerr. I wanna go for another competition.

Brandon.

#12. Doce

If you fall, stumble down

I'll pick you up off the ground.

Thanks guys.

Brandon

#11. Once.

Sometimes I wonder,

Why give me this talent. When all it's brought me is suffering and tears.

Small little happiness here and there. I guess it adds up to how much i was crushed under my own pressure.

Just can't take the price of this equivalent exchange. Suffering for Success.

But damn that, I have to.

All my life at least, I'll have something to show.

I guess this is all just my fault, and I deserve this.

sometimes i think, hopes are meant to be dashed

Brandon.

I know nobody's doing this to me. But, I can't take it that, I fail to live up to my own expectations.

#10. Diez.

The walls start breathing

My mind's unweaving

Maybe It's Best You Leave Me Alone.

Well, guess what. I blew everything. Every single thing that I thought I had, I didn't.

I should be happy, I mean, at least Singapore won something. (well, congrats to Nan Feng & Maxine, you did well (: )

But I can't stop thinking. Why? Why? Why? It should be me on the podium.

I had my ego blasted a little over 10 times this whole frickin trip. The 5K day helped me hit an all time low. hahaha. And I guess my mood like, depends a whole lot on my ego. (why do you think I constantly boost my own. hahaha)

First Mistake.

Not having a wide enough peripheral vision to see Taipei catch up with me to send me into semis.

Second Mistake.

Misplacing Sean's Accreditation

Third Mistake.

Being so frantic and rushed that I forgot everything I need for the race

Fourth Mistake.

Not eating the last night, which probably contributed to my 2nd last place in heats for the 500m

Fifth Mistake.

Screwing up that heats. Could've skipped Semis

Sixth Mistake.

Starting the fastest for the thousand. (If you see me start slow, you know I'll catch up. If you see me start fast, there's something wrong)

Seventh Mistake.

For a split second, contemplating giving up, losing my mental power which pulls me through a race which i start fast and die.

Eighth Mistake.

Actually thinking that I could attempt to pull the K4. Causing me to die, go to hell, reborn, die again and thats why we lost out at the last part, coming in 7th instead of 6th

Ninth Mistake.

Not putting a grip on my paddle, causing me to slip and capsize into the super freezing-until-like-I-was-shivering-damn-badly-in-the-boat water. Right before the 500m semis. Causing me to come in second, even though i tried my best.

Tenth Mistake.

Missing the start for the K4 500m finals. (It's all our faults, but it's not like the officials care)

Eleventh Mistake.

Misinterpreting coach's instructions for the 5000m race. It didn't occur to me "start like a 200m race"

Twelfth Mistake.

Giving up on winning for the 5000m race.

Thirteenth Mistake.

Making one big round for the big round, losing out.

Fourteenth Mistake.

Not having enough willpower to up.

Fifteenth Mistake.

Just, plain, not being fast enough.

Sixteenth Mistake.

Having too big an ego. "The bigger they are, the harder they fall"

Seventeenth Mistake.

Honesty.

Eighteenth Mistake.

Crossing the line, going too close.

Nineteenth Mistake.

Thinking some things just ain't my fault

and lastly.

Brandon.

sigh.

Maybe if you had left me alone

#9. Nueve

"Life is like a game of Tennis: Whoever serves well, seldom loses"

Well, Im going to Iran in a day! Extremely excited, esp with my new 1:49 and 3:51. I'm seriously super super psyched! I wanna win I wanna win I wanna win! Do coach proud :).

And our new black skins are really, imba cool, even though they cost like one billion dollars! but really, 4 of us, in the same boat, wearing exactly the same things - that actually is cool. WOAH its like imba imba cool XD.

so i guess we'll be going there with a

k1 - 3:51, 1:49

k4 - 3:26, 1:36

I guess we won't be fruitless now :)

Brandon

#8. Ocha

I guess it's fine.

#7. Sueve

Well, I've grown a year older.

I'm no longer - "you're fifteen right?" " no i'm fourteen going on fifteen" - shocked look on everyones faces. heehee.

but anyways, I really enjoyed my birthday, thanks to everyone who made it happen!

The ezlink, crumpler, slippers, num-usa! hahahah

really appreciate what everyone has done for me on my birthday, it was very very enjoyable.

Though over the span of the 2 days I really think i grew fat :P. 4 cakes in 2 days :O:O.

Well, maybe this marks the day, where I have gone past fluke-beatable, to unbeatable. ACC, just you wait. those 13-14 boats that are going, I will OWN YOUR SORRY LITTLE PLATEXES MUAHAHAHHA.

9 more days to ACC.

The shades look cool

I want to know my timing this morning

I hope it's under 4

I'm thankful for straight finals for k4 :)

:)

Brandon.

#6. Sies

Well, 4 days more till we train with coach again. and a month time to ACC.


Soccer was super funny omg. The group of kids we invited to play with us are really funny! Like, there's a small guy named Terry, he tried to throw the ball forward, but through his legs like a 360 kinda thing? and it went high but a little bit forward. Then the guy named Jeffrey, he said "aiya noob lah, this is how it's done" then he throws the ball in between his legs and behind him, out of the court XD.

The things they say to each other also super funny XD

anyway, that aside.

ALL COURSEWORK ALMOST DONE! EXCEPT CMATHS COURSEWORK No. 2

:)

Brandon.


I needa do my 30km.

#5. Cinco

Looks like I'm going to ACC after all :):)

All that hard work reassuring my parents that my schoolwork would not be affected has paid off!

Iran, here I come :D.

Now the only thing is that I must win like, something reasonable there! otherwise sending me would be a waste no? :(.

Heh, 4 events is gonna wear me out but... For myself, and for the team! I will persevere! :D.

Brandon.

#4. Quadro

Can you hear me say

"Don't throw me away"

There's no way out

I gotta hold you somehow

I'll be the one in the middle next time, hopefully.

Oh well. Anyway, I should be doing better things in school at the moment, though I just finished my Chinese coursework :P.

Brandon.

Hinyang. You summed It all up.

to the hungarian. our coach. our friend. our idol. our role model. you never gave up on anyone of us. you were always there. picking up pieces of our shattered dreams and dashed hopes. putting it all back together. you kept us going. you sought no returns. whenever we felt like giving up, we knew we couldn't. all we needed to do was to turn back and look at how tired you were, yet you were still paddling with us. the 3 sessions you would do in a day, who were we to complain. thank you so much for believing in us. we will be back, better, faster, stronger. you'll see.



" guys, this is your last time doing this. make it your best! 100%! " Balazs Babella.

- Hinyang's note.


omg. I cried reading this, knowing how disappointing our k2 must have been.

Brandon.

#3. Tres.

Great, my phone is lost.

I've realised how much I want to win Worlds. It's not just a tiny flicker of hope now, it's becoming real for me. Romanian coach said so, coach said so, I'm getting encouraged from every side. And I seriously do not want to let coach or my dreams down. At almost any cost.

I will make A Finals two years from now, I promise. - and win it, or come close. ACC is a stepping stone, and I really cannot afford not to go.

I hope you understand.

I'm down this road and there's no turning back.

You can stick around I guess

Or you can walk away

I'm used to people coming and going anyway
Brandon

Don't worry, I'm not trying to sound pitiful.

I've got my dreams at night, books and nelo in the day

Entirely up to you to do anything you want

I've already been numbed by defeat

All I want is the taste of finally having victory

And not just cheap thrills,

But real, true victory.

I need to suffer to attain it;

And I'm ready






I hoped you wouldn't though, but it's unfair to you, I know. So do whatever you think's best.

#2. Dos

Seriously, how could I even think I stood a chance!

Well, this post marks the last day that I have, schoolless! I'm slightly scared to what I might find in school tomorrow... But who cares, die then die. HAHA

So I failed terribly. It's my fault that Joshua spent his last World Juniors losing. Really. Especially for the 500m! I can't seen to find a positive version of panic..

When I pride myself for being a 1000m great, my endurance supposed to be alright, but I panicked before my 500m race and really screwed it up. Like, I died with 300m left to go, and we weren't even first at that point of time. That is so not me.

I would like to say we did a good 1000m anyway, but I realised after the whole thing, that I must have let coach down. If we had hit his target timing, we'd be in one of the finals. But we didn't. sigh, I keep having the feeling the only people that let coach down was our k2. Sorry, coach.

But I'll have my next World Juniors to get my revenge, and when that time comes, everyone would want to trade their jackets for mine! HAHAHAH

First Junior Singaporean to get into A Finals, that's a start (:




Brandon.

#1. Uno.

My first blog post marks the end of the stupid Romanian training camp, what's called the "Talent Identification Programme 2009-2010". It's 2:48 in the morning, and Nan Feng's being lame as usual, sitting beside me, typing random comments throughout this post (i think. -.-). I realised a big great lesson in this whole training camp, very important and vital lesson. Nan Feng Is Stupid. :O. She didn't even get the simplest of plots
(I Am Legend - in case Nan Feng reads this, this was the movie we watched on my computer 2 nights ago.)
* no need to in case , i am here! - nananananfeng*
(Isn't that the point? Stupid Nanfeng)
* stop itlahs. -bananananfeng*
Look how retarded the conversation is. All her fault.
And she doesn't know what Rabies is.
(stupid brandon-nanfeng).

k, so I guess the best timings I've done in this Romania weed lake pond training camp, are

2km: 8.39 - lost to Valencia
1km: 4.05 - lost to Valencia
500m: 1.55 - lost to Valencia

whatthefailll. Somehow, the last 2 days of the training camp, I felt super off-form :O
Okay, that's a super stupid excuse. Maybe I didn't give a hundred percent in the name of doing a correct stroke! But oh well. I feel like a joke now!
Cause yesterday? Was my last chance.
I blew it.

The only consolation I have is that I didn't lose to anyone that's my age or younger. But then again, age difference doesnt matter during the olympics no?
Now there's only the next International Competition (world) to beat that Miguel Valencia. By that time, I'll beat him. Hopefully.

Shouldn't have gave in to that tired feeling. Damn, damn damn!

nevermind, the time trials aren't the end of the world. or the season.
Moscow is.
And I'm gonna win something.
Hopefully.

and Joshua, hop on, you're in for the time of your life!
Un treinta y dos!. Tres veinticinco.

And So We Go.
Let's Go!
Brando